Personality

"A Knight shall never fight for a King that will Not fight for him and his Men" - The Okra Devouring Savant, Alexander of House Fields, Lord of Perilous Games, and Engineer of Software

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My DnD Stats

The sins I struggle with are Wrath, Despair, and Lust. My heart yearns for peace, truth, and justice - when transgressed against, I am quick to anger. I am easily discouraged as the world itself is not kind nor fair, making it easy to feel hopeless. I have fallen into sexual sin many times through lust, placing the physical act above emotional intimacy. I am not proud of this, but I am always seeking to turn away from sins like these and grow closer to Christ.

If you want to hear my despair in .wav form 👋, see my SoundCloud: Sins & Despair.
Disclaimer: These songs are artistic expressions of personal struggles and emotions. Some content has been exaggerated or fictionalized to fit the rhyme scheme and artistic flow - they should not be taken as literal autobiographical statements or encouragement of harmful behavior.

Child of God Alexander Africanus Americanus, the Engineer of Software; Master of Scrum, Bachelor of Science in Computer Science & Computer Security from Georgia Southern University; Homage to House Fields, son of Radiology Technician Alonzo the adopted; Veteraned Warrior of the United States Navy. Thy father is a Loving Husband to Engineer of Civilizatons and Breaker of Glass Ceilings Margo the Maiden of House Cheatham, thyself art Second to Depart thy Mother's womb, but First to Carry thy Father's Name Fields.

If you haven't gathered already i'm a nerd/dork. I like to have fun, However in a professional compacity I am serious and keep everything logical. I enjoy puzzle games and all around problem solving. According to the personality test below I'm Analytical, Considerate, Supportive and Cautious. That being said, I have a strong since of duty and loyalty and I am deeply offput by dishonesty while extremely appreciative of honesty. I'm extremely critical of disingenuous behaviour, as i'd much rather one hurt my feelings with your words than stab me in the back with a dagger. So if you dislike me or dislike things that I like/stand for let me know :D and we can have a healthy discussion about it.

"When the hard truth becomes too much to bare, lies and silence slip on the mask of care." - Alexander Fields

The Lord is my Shepherd. I am both sheep and dog - my emotional side is the sheep 🐑, gentle and feeling, while my logical side is the dog 🐕, protective and analytical.

In my dreams, I appear as someone who saves people - even my enemies who just transgressed against me. I fight monsters while constantly questioning if I am becoming one by doing so. I argue with voices of doubt to preserve truth and resist temptation out of principle. Most importantly, I yearn to be understood, not just heard - as I'm only generally recognized for the things I do, not who I am.

✨ I am Xaniel — Visionary Architect of the Kingdom, Walking in Intimacy and Restoration. To know me is to encounter the tenderness of heaven and the wisdom of a builder, to step into a space where vision meets compassion, and where brokenness is reimagined into beauty.